THE BATTLE WITH DESTINY

CAT results are out.8th January 2008 could have been the most awaited day of my life but GOD had a different plan for me.

Today when the results are out I dont have the guts to check it even.

Dreams unrealized,prayers unanswered.Destiny has fucked off my dreams and I see them shattered.........lying all around me........being treaded by situations.

WHY ME GOD???


18.10.07

The reverse countdown has begun.30 days more for CAT.......the exam I have been waiting for....the exam for which I left my job.....the exam which could either make or break me.


Well.....preparations have gained momentum with the last hour revision and brush-up.I am planning to start with the mock-CATS within a day or two.


Today is Mahasaptami.


The celebrations have started.My mom is all ready to go to the pandal to offer the puja.I decided not to go to the pandal as I have to complete a section-test of Quant.Mom kept on insisitng but I told her that Maa Durga would be a lot more happier to see me put all my efforts for the exams.I promised mom to accompany her on the next day.Mom went and I immersed myself into the world of numbers,geometry,algebra.


19.10.07

Today is Maha-Ashtami.

As promised to mom I will have to accompany her to the pandal in the evening so I decided to complete the RC and Verbal lessons in the first half.So did I.


In the evening I went to the pandal and had a blast.After praying to Godess Durga we chilled out.Memories were refreshed as we strolled around our locality mandir.Thoroughly enjoyed the evening.Thanks to mom for forcing me to go to the pandal.



After the fresh lease of life that I had by visiting the pandal I was back to my studies.Gosh this routine padhai-sharai has started taking a toll on me.But then I thought to myself.Just a few days more Rumi.This way my preparations continued.

24.10.07

23 days to CAT.

The day started as usual with RC and Verbal in the first half.Today I had decided to take section tests of Quant,LR and DI each.The time after 10:30 pm has been kept for analysis.Things were moving quite nicely.


Its 9 o'clock in the night and I was through with the section-test.Quite satisfied with Quant and LR......though DI has to be taken a bit more seriously.Well,I thought of taking a break and went to kitchen to have a word with mom.She was busy preparing dinner and I started chatting with her.After disturbing her for a while instead of lending a helping hand I came out of the kitchen and at the kitchen door somehow slipped and fell down.The moment I fell I felt an excrutiating pain in my right arm.My mom cam running and so did my younger brother.They tried to help me get up but the pain was unbearable and I couldnt even move.After a while,when I somehow got up with my brother's help my right arm was worse.......Swollen to double its size.The first thing that came to my mind amidst that pain was that I wont be able to take the exam anymore.

25.10.07

The countdown has suddenly stopped.

Last night was the longest night of my life.My arm was somehow wrapped with a crepe bandage and few doses of pain-killers and tranqulizers were given so that I could sleep.Today came the X-Ray report.Yes........A fracture at the elbow......a plaster for at least 2 months.......could extend to 3 months if required........The reverse countdown chart in my room with 18th Nov boldly marked as D-day mockingly stared at me.'What cruel game is this' I asked God.

27.10.07

Got my hand plastered.Decided to take CAT with this broken arm.Unable to hold the pencil.Still promised myself that I would keep trying.Doctor adviced not to move the hand.

17.11.07

Not even 24-hrs to CAT.

I have decided to take the test.

18.11.07----------------THE D-DAY

So the day has finally arrived.I went to take the test.Had a lot of problem in positioning my hand on the desk with the heavy plaster on it.Still kept trying.Started off with English section.Found it ok.Attempted quite a lot of question as VA doesnt require you to do any writing.

Then moved to Quant.This was a challange for me.I tried solving the the problems but had trouble with the pencil.I started scribbling somehow on the paper solving the questions slowly and kept losing time.Still managed to solve a few of them.By the time my hand started paining badly and my speed furthur reduced.As only half an hour was left I checked out the DI section,It was comprehensive calculation based.I couldnot do anything in that section.Although the questions were easy my hand gave up and so did the time limit.In one word the exam was a DISASTER.


I wish I could have been any superhero for a day or I could become numb for a day then the most awaited exam wouldnot have been a disasterThe pain of my hand was nothing compared to the pain inside.....................

OH GOD!!!

I HAVE LOST.I HAVE LOST THE BATTLE TO SOMETHING CALLED DESTINY.