Aimcat 808......a beginning.

Today my AimCAT 808 was a disaster.
DI bewafa nikli aur english ne backstab kiya.Low attempts in DI lured me to attemp more in English which I did and got most of them wrong.Quants was the saviour but the horrendous duo(Eng and DI) took a toll over the little marks that cud have been scored from quants.

But this is not the end folks.This is perhaps the beginning(the wake up call).Its high time now to realise that CAT 2007 aint a easy game.The AIMCATS getting difficult each time its time for us to pull ourselves up and emerge from the ashes like a phoenix does.So get ready to kill.All the best to all of u out dere.

LONELY

Lonely .....I'm so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my own.
Lonely.....I'm so lonely,
I'm Ms. Lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my own,
Lonely.....I'm so lonely,

LISTENING TO THESE LINES OF AKON I REALLY FELT LONELY......

The whole world is sleeping......its dark and silent out there.........but am sitting in front of my comp.......typing letters.......insomniac........restless........shying away from my ownself.

Its not that I am not sleepy.......just that i dont want to sleep......i dont want to give some time to myself.......cos those are the times when my loneliness bites.

So whenever i am not studying or doing anything gud.........i am sitting in front of the comp........blogging in the middle of the midnght........avoiding myself.

The world is so busy.....every one chasing their dreams.....with their own set of problems......so am I.

I cant complain.......I cant shout......I cant burst my heart out and say.......'Anybody listening???This is Rumi who needs someone to talk to.......someone to share her dreams.......someone to fight with......someone to say that I have someone'.........Why would anyone bother????why would anybody care?????After all everyone is entangled in the cobwebs of their routine life.....Nobody has a moment to spare.

I keep humming the lines again

Lonely .....I'm so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my own.
Lonely.....I'm so lonely,
I'm Ms. Lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my own,
Lonely.....I'm so lonely,

SO TRUE.........SO VERY TRUE.

Time flees

I got selected among many other candidates in the interview and after 2 days I was at home with my appointment letter .I still remember the excitement........the dreams,the aspirations to make it big.....that was a time.

I started working..........though initially with many hiccups (being a complete novice to financial sector).But my determination to excel quickly changed me from a tyro to an adroit employee.My contributions were noticed and very soon I became one of the stars of the region.
Work was hectic and the pressure was enormous,still i seemed to enjoy every bit of it.

Thats life.........When things are new,out of sheer curiosity,we tend to overindulge ourselves into it in a manner that the newness is lost and the charm is evaded.Slowly we get bored with it.

Thats what happened to me.I worked,overworked and worked till all energy,all excitement,all zeal succumbed to the monotonous routine life and the overwhelming pressure.The corporate juggernaut started taling a toll on me.

I was hardworking, zealous, diligent as my colleagues and bosses called me but the fact is that a person is allured to work hard till it pays.When you find out that your hardwork can just be overlooked before the other shortcuts to success (which are very common to corporate world) you stop giving it your best.

My job was good,company was reputed,profile was alluring but the people out there were not good.Its a basket full of crabs where you have to pull somebody or your ownself down in order to rise professionally.This seemed to be one impossible thing to me.I was never ready to compromise on my scruples and so after spending a long 2.5 yrs I deciced to end the journey that I had once embarked

The journey was put to an end.........not my dreams which lay fresh in my eyes.....finding mediums to turn into reality.No sooner than I found one.This time it was a bigger challange......a challange that could make or break my life........

CAT..................the reason in my life to start afresh.

My first steps towards my dream

I had set on my independent journey on 24 the January 2005 when I proudly joined ICICI Bank as my first job.It was a dream come true for a girl like me who always wanted to work.From my early days at school I remember my fierce desire to be independent,to work and earn for myself.I dont know why I caught the fancy of being a career woman from a very tender age.Though I wanted to get married but the very thought of spending my entire life being a housewife was unconvincing for me from my chilhood days.I grew up cherishing my dream and when given the opportunity I plunged it at the cost of my studies.Yes thats what i did.Being a bright student I and was performing exceptionally well in the First year of my M.Sc in Physics when came the offer.
I still remeber the day.Yes it was 6th of January.I was busy relishing a chocolate softy at the Firayalal Chowk when suddenly I got a call on my moblie.Taking the call I got to know that it was from the HR of ICICI Bank and they were calling for a written test cum interview at Kolkata.Quickly I had to jot down the address of the venue on the napkin given with my icecream cone.Though I rememberd uploading my CV casually in one of the job portals this call was certainly unexpected.It was Thursday and i had to report on Saturday so up there I was packing my bags and preparing for the first interview of my life.